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i want myself back!!

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 04:50:56 GMT

hhuhhhhhh.. at last update gak blog nie stelah sekian lame berhibernasi..

seriously, i don know wut's wrong wif myselff.. nafsu terhadap perkara-perkara online as facebook, frenster, email, google grup sume pudar.. buat x kesah jer.. internet line ade jer sentiasaa..tp tiada berkeinginan pun.. mmg x tau ape prob dgn diri aku niee.. kalo online pun prefer to b a silent reader.. whyy?? whyyy??? uhuuhu

terasa kehilangan diri sendiri pun ader skang nie... membuang masa dgn malas2x + tidoo.. rumah pun bersepah tahap max skang nie!! keje2x yg bertangguhh tue semakin la bertimbun2x..

i am myself when having my buddy around.. really enjoy bile duk melepak bersama korang.. lupa kejap sume masalah bile ketawa x ingatt dgn korangg.. ehehe

btw my life been haywired past few weeks.. being as a sneaker!! each time dgr bunyi kete sebokla nk mengintai sape eehe pastu kengkadang kene parking jauh2x dr umah sndiri sbb x nak datt person tau im staying at my own house.. huhhh mmg teruk!!

over dis wiken ader royal debate dkt UIAM n myself invited as a judge. insyaAllah i'll join them sbb dlm proses mengembalikan SITI FATIMAH KHALID.. hope dis entry will b d point to beginn..

loaded!

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 04:27:46 GMT

things to do:-

1. siapkan report laporan audit dalaman

2. report masa menunggu januari - april 2008

3. report kajian kepuasan pelanggan dalaman

4. report perkhidmatan kawalan keselamatan pekerjaan

5. referral letter for few patients

6. report kompetensi staff

7. call RELA - confirmkan pasal tembak burung merpati

8. audit medical assistant outpatient card

9. key in diabetes data

10. etccsssss

LOTTss of commitment!! x masuk lagi things to do for myselff.. :(

time2x mcmnie terasa sgt nk transfer cpt2x uhuhuh

give myself own diagnosis : MENTAL STRAIN which the treatment is pegi jalan2x + window shopping + melepak dan bersuka ria uhuhhu anyone? :)

acne

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 10:45:27 GMT

28 years old Malay male walked in to the clinic last night wanna get treatment for his acne problem.. looking at his face, i categorized his acne into moderate severity.. then he asked me few questions regarding his acne and the treatment options..

i gave him few xplanation wut d cause, how 2 prevent bla bla bla.. antara points dat i told him was too much stress pun boleh dpt acne jugak... then tetibe die trus potong my word n said this ' dr pun saye tgk ade jerawat..' chesss sgt memalukan!! trus tersenyap n senyum jer la yg mampuu.. uhuhuu reach home n trus carik ubat utk jerawat!! eheh

by the way, pindah rumah is so tiring!!! x abis2x pun lagi pack barang dr pagi.. camne la nk abih, while packing smpat cek email lar, chat wif kd lar, browsing facebook, update dis blog, tido etc. rasenye byk laie xtvt lain compare to packing my endless stuff..

an eye opener

Sat, 17 May 2008 03:13:00 GMT

me myself slalu anggap istikharah dibuat bile x tau nk buat kptusan, keliru n rase buntu bile x tau nk pilih yg mane..

a conversation wif a fren one day change my perception towards istikharah..

istikharah means seeking guidance.. n we supposed to seek guidance from Allah every second n minutes.. n x salah kalo kite praktikkan istikharah everyday..

common issues, regarding relationship.. when somebody approaching us or kite rase kite minat somebody baru terpk nk buat istikharah nk tgk whether he/she is good for us or not..

actually istikharah ni boley buat awal2x lg tanpa spesifik kpd sesape.. boley start buat istikharah n minta petunjuk dlm kehidupan seharian,,, who knows kwn2x sendiri nanti one day approaching us, so as we already did d istikharah, Allah will guide us easily insyaAllah..

bukan tue jer, once we r in relationship pun istikharah kene truskan.. help us to make a wise n correct decision.. gaduh2x + jealous + x puas hati itu n ini common things in relationship n sometimes lead to bergaduh yg akhirnye end d relationship.. tp bile kite dh buat istikharah n we knows that we r in correct path, kite akn buat keputusan yg tidak terburu2x ;)

sekian.... terase sgt formal menulis entry kali ni ehehe

my chum's amazement!

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 14:30:36 GMT

sms from ecah on las saturday 'ct, free x ahad nie? nak ajak g nilai.. ade cerita nk share'.. im expecting somthing after read d sms.. am veri sure dat ecah nk bertunang n wanted to buy somthing for her engagement..

once i enter ecah's car on Sunday..

ecah : ct, aku nk kawen

im so exciteddd n surpriseee...

me : ecah.. cepatnyeee..

ecah : tp bukan dgn z***m* , aku bertunang las week n nak kawen 8th june nie..

im really shockedd!!!!

she will getting married wif somebody dat she don know, her parent's choice... despite dat she's having boyfrenn... she maintain selamber n boley senyum2x lagi uhuhhu

terasa mcm dlm cite2x filem... dat's life!! kite hanya mampu merancang, tp ALlah yg maha perancang menentukn segalanya... sgt2x kagum dgn ecahh.. initial plan, on d 8th we bof akan pegi wedding mira belah lelakii.. tp it turn to be ecah's big dayy insya Allahh..

i strongly believe, dat somthing will not happen wifout nothing.. accept wif open mind and heart in a positive way..

n in d nex few days n weeks my close fren will change their status.. start wif aiman, followed by naz, mira, ecah n wanie.. congrates in advance to everibodi!!

ecah n mira left me alone.. uhuhuh

wif wanie before her status change

;) getting back chemistry wif naz b4 her big day

p/s : to all my besfrens + clan yg lainn.. don left me behindd!! ;)

pewww... sooo outdated!

Tue, 26 Feb 2008 10:24:28 GMT

venue : secret recipe jusco melaka
time : 5.13 pm

been a long2xx time to update my new interestt.. huhuh n as usual my alasan x de mase la, x sempat laa.. sgt lapuk! d main point i donn hef d strong will.. uhuh

zillionn thingsss happened... those 'tying their knot' mmg melambakk2xx.. everi week g kenduri kawen n dh masuk dlm my planning everi weekk. ;)

ill updating dis bloggy soon... ;) currently me bz siapkn keje akak yg kene submit esok..
ampun akak!! baru terkedek2x nk siapkann... =) don wori kay! kompem siapkn nye arini.. eheh put all my effort on it!

not yet!

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 03:00:12 GMT

errr..x dpt surat pindaan pun laie..
probs still runningg.. really short of time..
wut should i do?

tears n laugh

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 05:11:58 GMT

i called it a day!

d day begin wif rase geram + malas + terpakse oncall coz nobody wanna accept d new fella 2 b oncall wif d reason x fit la, he knows nothing laa etcc.. then end up wif me yg jadi mangse, sbb x de org nk buat oncall.. supposed dis wik is my honeyweek wifout call, nk wat camne kann..

starting call wif a bad sign! early in d morning dh kene pronounce death! :(
part yg sediynyee, arwah is a widow yg hanye ade sorang anak yg tgh amik spm.. d cruel inside me, waktu pronounce death n breaking d bad news to one of her relative tak rase ape2x punn! i hefff too :((

d worst part, afte meeting CC (chief clerk) who alwitz irritate me! hef to meet her coz need 2 know wut is my nex postingg.. wif ura2x d obs n gynae not enuf MO n she may put sesape 2 dat posting, really need 2 confirm earlier,,, n as expectedd! she posted me 2 d dptment!! obs n gynaee which is full dgn political + unfair + medicolegall etcc i really don wantt!! ......n my tears day started! bergenang2x air mate when informing my colleaguess.. eheheh

can't think whether dis is my faith or nott.. d main prob d decision made unfair by d cc.. she make it hard on purpose... this is d moment when it's more than just a game, and you either take that step forward or turn around and walk away.. n i decide 2 play wif d game, step forward n win d game!!

start 2 call everibadi n ask helpp.. credit 2 abg yg bg a lott of suggestions..as alwitzz he alwitz b my hero!! d one name dat he gave me really help me!! RA saves me!! x payah masukk d dptment n trus dpt surat pindaan 2 d posting dat i want!! alhamdulillahh... thank u so muchh!!!

if is not about d thingy which one of my bad xperience nobody wanna experience it, i wont neva knal RA..at the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it.. ALLAH knows everyythinggss dat u would neva knoww.. semua yg berlaku mesti ade hikmahnyee.. believe it! THANK YOU ALLAH!!

p/s: yeahh... me on leave from today onwardd

am i ready?

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 04:52:37 GMT

browsing n find somthing;

dat article punye tajuk : siap menghadapi cinta

few questios from dat article :- (telah diubah suai utk pemahaman umum)

1. adakah anda telah menyelesaikan seluruh urusan yang berhubungan
dengan pasangan yang terdahulu?

2. adakah anda telah terbebas dari masalah emosi yang dapat menjadi gangguan dlm hbgn akn dtg?

3. Jika pernah menikah, sudahkah anda benar-benar bercerai dan terbebas dari seluruh urusan yang berhubungan dengan perceraian tersebut baik dari segi fisik maupun mental? errr... x de kaitan! eheh

4. masihkah anda memendam kemarahan kepada pasangan di masa lalu atau merasa marah karena perlakukannya kepada anda?

5. masihkah anda bersedih kerana perginya pasangan atau kerana
kehilangan suatu hubungan?

6. apakah anda marah atau tidak puas hati kerana belum terlibat dalam suatu hubungan sedangkan psgn anda sudah pun mempunyai somebody?

7. pernahkah anda merasa sangat terluka sehingga sulit rasanya untuk membuka diri, menerima seseorang yang baru?

8. maukah anda melakukan perubahan agar dapat mengembangkan hubungan baru yang lebih sehat?

ezy 2 say, hard 2 do.. wut u should do open up ur heart, bersihkan hati, make a new move, n get out from all d sadness n pray hard 2 Allah for a peaceful n happiness life insyaAllah

p/s: me absconded from g grand ward round!! jahat2x

somthing missing

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 07:19:07 GMT

now im realize dat i am not good in writing!
when me speak up all d words came out easilyy but when the time 2 jot it down , im stucck!

being sms wif a fren of mine wif all d good quotation n wordy, manage 2 gif only a veri memorable sms (rasenye larr) then angkt bendera putihh!! tensenn sbb fail 2 reply wif bunge2x ayat n touchy wordy..

am thinking, is my neurones in d brain degeneratingg? N00oo me still youngg, suku abad pun blum smpai laiee :D my laziness level increasing tremendousllyy! sgt positiff uhuhu x bace buku pun skangg!! how 2 get d rajinness bacckk?

missing my childhood memoriess! book wif me everiwhere am goingg.. dlm kete+tgh mkn+ tgk tvv.. setiap masee! mak slalu ckp ' timah kecik2x suratkaba cine pun bace' =)
im juz a plain kid yg follow everithingss, berhati mulie plak tuee.. ehehe x pernah rase jeles2x ngan kwn2x skolah rendah time tuee.. skang nie sume nk pk jahat jerr! wut a veri ugly dirty blacky heart dat i heff.. really miss d time!!